About me

This is my story, a quite long story about how I fell in the rabbit hole and how yoga helped me out of it and showed me the way that led me to my true and real self.

Perhaps, grab yourself a cup of tea or coffee, find a comfy seat, because this story might ocupy you for a while.

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I studied history and archaeology at the University, when I got the chance to spend a semester in South Korea as an exchange student. This 6 months passed by fast and it went so well I wanted more. I ended up staying there for a whole year. I met interesting new people who, with the addition of the new culture, changed me so much that I became a whole new person. I always felt like I was never my true self, I always wanted to please others, I was easily influenced by others and obviously visible who my friends were... ehem In Seoul I got closer to my true self, I became more brave and more open but I still wanted to please others, but this time, different people. 

After leaving Korea, I felt lost and rejected and nobody seemed to understand me. I suffered from depression that got worse with time. I had no idea what to do with my life. The only thing I knew was that I was unhappy with what I was doing until then. I hated mysef and my life. My mental and physical health got so bad that I couldn't even get out of bed. I was dealing with depression for years, then I ended up in hospital for several weeks with accute kidney failure. Turned my grandfather died in the same illness when he was only 36. Then I realised, I don't want to spend my whole life in bed, sick and depressed, feeling sorry for myself and wishing to die. I was only 23.

I should have marked the date with a red pencil in my calendar, when I decided to find out what makes me happy and to take control of my own life. I quit university, took out a whole year for myself to connect with my soul and find the true me. I started to do yoga and meditation, started to eat healthy. I started to try out new things, do things for myself, to please myself, made timetable for the day to organize my life, researched and studied and practiced every day.

I started to work with the law of attraction (after reading the book "The secret"). I wrote gratitude lists, for many days I only had about 3 things on list like "I am grateful I could get out of bed." With time and practice it got better, too. I even noticed how I can attract things into my life.

I found my way back to witchcraft, again, luckily. As they say: "You don't find witchcraft, witchcraft finds you." It's true. I was only 12 years old when witchcraft found me and I started to learn about it but somehow during high school I lost connection with it, but when I most needed it, witchcraft found me again. At the best time possible. I don't like to label people but if I would have to, I'd describe myself as an eclectic green kitchen witch. The thing I like the most about is what it teaches about nature and its healing powers, and the energy within that is one with the God & Goddess/Universe/everything.


You wouldn't think but there's so much common in yoga and witchcraft. (and even Buddhism). Witchcraft teached me how powerful I am, how to use my own powers, how to live in balance with myself and nature.It also has a lot in common with "The Secret"/The law of attraction.

Yoga teached me to pay attention to my body, connect it with my mind and soul, and mostly, how to work for myself instead of against myself. It reminds me that everything connects eventually, to be true myself and do everything mindfully. I admit I fell on my face many times, I failed but picked myself up each time, got back to my mat and practiced every damn day. I got stronger (inside and out), learned to understand what my body is telling me, how to nourish my body well, how to ground myself and mediate. (What is also used in witchcraft.) I found a way that leads to the best and happiest version of myself. 

Finally, I was able to go out and meet humans again, to FEEL as a human again. I became more and more confident and happy with each day. I went back to study but one day I woke up and I knew this is what I want to do. I thought a trip to India would be the perfect ending of my self-healing story so I signed up to yoga teacher training to learn about the mysteries and art of yoga, pranayama and meditation. But instead of creating a perfect ending, this turned out as a perfect beginning.

One day, during meditation class I came to the realisation that everything I was seeking was inside of me, all the time! I had to travel thousands of miles and crawl through all that dirt and pain to dig out the gold. In the middle of meditation class I couldn't hold it back anymore and bursted out in laughter because I felt so much love and happiness. For the first time in my life, I felt whole. Imagine all that peace and freedom that comes when you understand: Here and now, in this very moment you are enough. More than that, you are whole and perect. 

There's still a long way to go, many things to be learned and let go but one thing is for sure: this is my passion. To help others to find the light within themselves because dreams can come true and all of us can be happy, healthy and strong. Easily.